MY GOD AND I
As we measure time, the story starts a long long time ago. It is a fault of the human imagination that we can never imagine time in billions of years, it is something like our own federal deficits hard to imagine and even harder to understand.
Try to imagine the vacuum of space, I know it is hard to understand the vastness, and then fifteen billion years ago a ball of dirt explodes, and out of this ball of dirt, the universe ( as we know it) is created, assuming here that you understand a bit about the universe as we know of it today.
Instantly we see there are laws of physics, and laws of chemistry, x rays and gamma rays and light are created, elements begin to form, yet ninety five percent of it is dark matter that we know nothing about, yet. And you say it all came from nothing,
You have just proven that there might be a God also. That if we all came about from noting there also could have been a God before all of this who designed the whole mess, Big Bang and space and vacuum and the laws of physics, all of it. Only problem is that we don't know anything about this God and this is where myself and most of the religions part company.
SALVATION
Oh that
I would be dead,
saved from the gallows
by the hangman
my own executioner
and the torment continues
banished to a life
of my solitary confinement
I who consumed the word
drank at the fountain of the knowledge,
lie alone under the blackened skies
looking at the vastness of this hell
punishment unrelenting
for my sin,
for the one who dared
to seek the truth,
speak of the unjust god
cruelty of mankind
how do I trust
a god of mercy
that killed his own son
the creator of evil
and hell
for my salvation
12/23/2001
(M.N.R.)
In our arguments, discussions, my religious friends do not understand how I can believe in a creator per se, that is not God in a way that they understand Him. I find it difficult that we as humans can understand or know God, as religious claim to "know" but at the same time say that we can not comprehend the mysteries of God that HE works in mysterious ways.
I am a person of logic, to see what makes sense and what does not, what is rational and what is not.
For me to understand a God that loves and chooses the same people that are most disobedient of Him, the ones that HE curses time and time again sending them seven plagues is a God who is obsessed of HIS own creation , a God in the role of a stalker, and a scorned lover. Man is left helpless but to be making excuses for his "cherished" God who can not be wrong and can do no wrong. Thus I say that God did not create man in His own image, but that the man created a God in his own image.
There are ancient texts that purport to explain the "God's Vision" of man kind and to explain what what God thinks as to how man should behave. We know the conficlicts and the confusions that are within these texts, but we carry on, believing and trusting these, we grow up with these and fail to disagree so as not to suffer the punishments promised within these texts.
I have previously shown how the practices of Leviticus do not seem to be the ones practiced by mono theistic believers, how The treatment of and adulteress shown in "Numbers" did not make sense, and how the Koranic texts carry conflicting messages.
Would a God that does not approve of taking other's property, send this message to His believers? Here we are talking attacking a people and taking their property, albeit these foes are non believers,
"" "48.16": Say to those of the dwellers of the desert who were left behind: You shall soon be invited (to fight) against a people possessing mighty prowess; you will fight against them until they submit; then if you obey, Allah will grant you a good reward; and if you turn back as you turned back before, He will punish you with a painful punishment.
"48.19": And many acquisitions which they will take; and Allah is Mighty, Wise.
"48.20": Allah promised you many acquisitions which you will take, then He hastened on this one for you and held back the hands of men from you, and that it may be a sign for the believers and that He may guide you on a right path." ""
Call me what you will, I have a hard time believing that God wants animal or human sacrifices to be made in His name and the blood sprinkled at the alter and around the temple, that killed his "OWN" son, and that God wants you to rob others who are non believers. That is just my God.
This is not to say that I don't find some of these scriptures alluring and beautiful and wise in their understanding of the human situation and psychology, I have oft quoted from scriptures to validate my points about the need for morality, a "MORAL MAN" if you will.
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